Page 67 - Evidence of Things Unseen

that this van, which I bought in 1999, was the last item I would ever purchase on credit.
It was in March of 2000 that I was cast out from my place of ministry among the body
by my fellow ministers. The months leading up to this time were very painful and
tumultuous and I felt a need of getting away for a period of time that I might hear from the
Lord. I had just written the book The Remnant Bride and had felt led of the Lord to create
the Heart4God website to share teachings with the body of Christ. I had no source of
income other than God, and I wanted to hear from Him regarding what He would do in our
lives. I was casting around for direction, and had even thought of joining a ministry in
another state. I took my family to Mississippi for a week to visit with my sister’s family, and
while there I found a place apart and I sought to know God’s mind.
My sister lives in a rural area of Mississippi, and directly across the street from the
front of her house is a large field. Day by day I would sit in a chair on her front porch with
a notebook and pen and my Bible, and I would wait upon God to speak to me. I was ready
to write down whatever He spoke, and I was not disappointed. I filled up many pages while
I was there.
Some months earlier I had watched the movie “Forrest Gump,” and I was struck by
a particular scene in the film. Having made a fortune in shrimping and through
investments, Forrest returned to his hometown and he began mowing grass for the town
for free. He just rode around all day on his riding mower cutting grass. I have long enjoyed
cutting grass, whether with a push mower, or a riding mower, for I have found it to be a
time when I can focus upon the Lord and what He is speaking to me. At the time I watched
this movie my life was filled with conflict at home and at the church, and I looked at Forrest
spending his days mowing grass and I envied him. I wished that I could get away from all
of the turmoil and just mow grass all day long while communing with the Lord. This was
the most appealing scene to me in the entire movie.
When I arrived at my sister’s house I noticed that the field across the street had been
planted in grass, for the owner intended to start a sod farm. As I sat on the porch each day
I would watch the owner mow the grass with his tractor, and I was caught up in the
peacefulness of this occupation. One day I spoke to the Lord and said, “I wish you would
give me a job like this one of cutting grass, where I could forget my troubles and simply ride
around and commune with you each day.” The Lord responded by saying, “I have indeed
called you to a ministry of cutting grass, for all flesh is as grass. Yet those whom I use in this
ministry must first allow Me to cut the grass in their own lives.”
These words came to me very clearly, and I wrote them down in my notebook. I then
looked in my Bible for the Scripture that speaks of all flesh being as grass. I found the
following verses:

Isaiah 40:6-7
A voice says, "Call out." Then he answered, "What shall I call out?" All flesh is grass,
and all its loveliness is like the flower of the field. The grass withers, the flower fades,
when the breath of Yahweh blows upon it; surely the people are grass.

I understood the Lord to be telling me that He was calling me to a ministry of
removing the flesh from people’s lives, but that I would only be fit for such an occupation
by first allowing the Lord to deliver me from the bondage to the flesh that was present in
my life. This thought was both pleasing and disturbing to me. I wanted to be used of God
as a minister to His people, but I did not look forward to the process I would have to go