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                     The Lord was to subject me to a more intense trial this time, that my faith might be
               purified further by the fire it was subjected to. As the date approached where I could cancel
               my  health  insurance,  but  was  still  a  couple  months  away,  I  began  to  experience  the
               symptoms of diabetes. I had constant thirst and frequent urination. My mouth felt dry and
               cottony, and at times I experienced blurred vision and even dizziness. These symptoms
               persisted and began to increase in their frequency and intensity.
                     One day while I was performing my job as the hospital’s personal computer manager,
               I was working on a system in the ER when I became very dizzy. I was forced to lean against
               a wall to keep from falling down. Since I was already in the emergency room, I thought that
               I had better get myself checked out to see what the problem was. Blood tests were run and
               they revealed that my blood sugar level was 370 when it should be no higher than 120. The
               ER doctor told me that I was diabetic and that I needed to go see a family physician and get
               started on a diabetic regimen.
                     It was now less than a month before the date when I could cancel my health insurance.
               I  considered  this  matter,  and  it  struck  me  as  more  than  coincidental  that  I  should
               experience this trial at this time. Yet, God allowed me to be tried further. Certain nurses,
               whom I knew at the hospital, who worked with diabetic patients, and were involved in
               diabetic education, had heard about my diagnosis. They began seeking me out and urging
               me to go see a doctor immediately. They told me horror stories of patients who had gone
               blind from this disease, and others who experienced organ failure and amputated limbs.
               They would place brochures in my hands that proclaimed this same fearful message. These
               nurses told me that they had patients in the hospital at that very moment whose blood
               sugar level was no higher than mine, and they were on intravenous insulin drips.
                     When my wife learned of my condition she was no longer desirous of canceling our
               health  insurance.  It  seemed  that  on  every  front  I  was  meeting  resistance  to  this
               commitment I had made before the Lord. My symptoms persisted. I was accustomed to
               sleeping through the night without getting up a single time, but now I was getting up five
               or six times a night due to my frequent need to urinate, and I would then guzzle more water
               to slake my thirst. I was becoming somewhat rattled in my trial, and one day while driving
               with my family I pulled out in front of an oncoming car that I did not see. I only avoided a
               collision when my wife screamed, leading me to slam on the brakes. It may have been partly
               due to diabetes’ negative effect on peripheral vision that I did not see the car, but it was also
               partially due to my own anxious state.
                     I spent much time thinking about this matter of trusting God for our health, and I held
               off from going to see a family physician. Despite all the negative pressure I was receiving,
               and the report of my senses, I still had a witness in the spirit that God wanted me to trust
               Him and cancel health insurance on our family.
                     As I considered it, I could go to a doctor and begin treatment for diabetes, a treatment
               I would most likely be on for the rest of my life, or I could cast myself wholly over onto the
               Lord  and  trust  Him  to  bring  complete  healing.  The  prospects  of  being  healed,  when
               compared to lifelong diabetic management, knowing that there is no medical cure for
               diabetes and the condition usually worsens with age, caused me to prefer entrusting myself
               to God with anticipation of complete healing.
                     Perhaps  the  greatest  factor  that  weighed  in  my  choice  to  trust  God  was  that  I
               considered what life would be like if God could not be trusted. I considered what the years
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